No longer using Gamasutra

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    I feel like this needs explaining since apparently a lot of people don't get it. I never use my real name. Paranoia is only part of it. The biggest reason is that I hate it. It carries weight for me that I cannot bear and one of the best things about the internet to me is the ability to get a clean slate without a hundred preconceived notions about my character, not all of them unjustified.

    As far as I'm concerned, it is my right to choose who I am; even if that means throwing away everything I was - or trying to. Even without the use of my government-recognized identity that shit still haunts me and is always coming up. I have a hard enough time as it is trying to function with so much shame and self-hatred, I shouldn't have to be forced to carry every mistake I've ever made around like a fucking badge and never be able to redeem myself.

    Assuming it's even possible to be redeemed, considering how I've tried for years and still cannot be the kind of person I want to be.

    My life sucks enough, I really don't need it to suck more.

    I place no value on how we are born or what we are given anyway. All that matters to me is what we do.My name, my ethnicity, my culture, my birthplace, my age, my gender, and whatever else was forced on me without my consent are meaningless. They are also meaningless to me in other people. I don't give a damn what name your parents gave you, what color you are, or where you grew up. Whatever part of you they make up is too insignificant for me to consider judging you by them even partially, and I damn sure don't respect them as a point of pride or shame. If you're proud to be black, or female, or from Canada, that just tells me that you have not accomplished anything meaningful enough to be proud of, or that you're clinging to a label like a fucking highschool kid.

    To my knowledge, most of us are gestated in a womb and each one is equipped with its own unique variety of shit sandwich dispensers that we're forced to eat as soon as our cells start dividing. Most of life is spent dealing with the aftertaste, and I think that's wrong. I rip the outward identities aside and give people a chance to define themselves by their choices and their actions and to hell with anyone who cannot see the wisdom in this.

    The bottom line is I'm tired of this shit, I will not participate in any community or group that values such superficial things and personally think anyone that does value them is shallow and beneath contempt. Call me when you fuckers finish puberty.